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"For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Ephesians 2:10

Hello all! I am very excited to finally get this thing up and started...as some of you know I wrote alot on facebook but the format was so..well....boring. I needed some excitement on the page! And alot more room;) So I decided to start one of these savvy things. I'm not a Twitter or video blog type of person at all; definitely more into writing than talking into a webcam...just sayin. So what is my purpose of this you ask? Well we are just busy in this life my friends. I am constantly running, planning, studying, reading and I know many of you are as well! That can make it so easy to forget to share what the Lord is doing our precious lives. I mean after all, He is providing all of our blessings and opportunities, let's give Him some credit for it:) So basically this a way to keep updated on what God is doing in my life and even in lives around the world! I encourage you all to do the same..whether it be through messages, comments, emails, Facebook, Twitter, texts or videos. Be a light to others...we are called to do so."You are the light of the world. A city on a hill that cannot be hidden." Matthew 5:14.

I want to start off by asking you guys a question...what is your giant? (long pause..) Think about it. What is it that plagues you? What is it that causes you to turn and run the opposite direction? What do you fear? Lately God has addressed this issue of fear in my life so much...that I'm sitting in a complete mess of partially torn down walls and mortar. Trying desperately with weak arms and a heavy heart to put them up again. Needless to say guys...I'm not winning. God is messing me up! But in the best way He can for me. God knows all too well the stubborn heart and insecurities I held for so long, and He knows that bashing the walls down with His power and love is the only way to get me to take a step of faith and obey the calling He has placed in my life. It is so good though. In teh midst of these ashes and jagged stones I see hope and I feel power. In the distance I see a cross that I can get up and run to. My feet may be bloody and bruised but I will run...and keep running to the Lord and His calling for me. So what is my fear you ask? My fear is risks. I am all about being safe, comfortable, and secure. But I know God is calling me to step out...alot...and change something that burdens me so much. Let me recap what He's been doing these past few nights:

For about a week I have had some awful fits of sleep. I have been waking up, drenched in sweat (sorry a little gross), with huge headaches and a pounding heart. In my dreams I see children from all over our world, ribs potruding, sallow faces, disease and sicknes splaguing all parts of their beautiful little bodies. Last night in particular was the worst. For about ten minutes all I could hear were children screaming and crying...and as I lay there my heart pounded with worry and fear. I knew that this was not just something I was imagning...God was there in that moment, forcing me to listen and to finally see that I can't keep making excuses for not doing what He wants me to. I have known for awhile that I want to use my career to change the effects of poverty with nutrition for children but I was constantly battling God on where and how He wants me to do it. My heart particularly goes out to children in Ugandan war torn regions such as the North, and places like India and Rwanda. After a pointless fight and wasted breath, I have surrendered...completely.



Last night I just finally told God to have His way with my selfish and ambitious self. I am no longer letting the fear of being in places that could very well be the death of me hinder me anymore. I want to feel this burden, to see it in full form, to hold the children and provide for them, to cry with them and laugh with them. I will not care about disease or differences, I will love them. And I will fight to change their lives for the better. 1 Corinthians 9:24-25 says this, "Do you not know that in a race all the runners run but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever." How reassuring is that?! After I read that yesterday I was so satisfied. I knwo that God has placed this burden in my life for a reason, and I'm no longer in sorrow about it. It brings me joy and determination to press on to finishing school and beinning a career devoted to the Lord.



So I'll ask you again...what is your giant? Mine has been risks, and slowly in this pile of rubble the fight is being won against it. Are you ready to take up arms and face your giant with Jesus? I pray that you will:) Listen for God in all things, He will make His will known.



Embracing my burden in love,



Let me know what you think! I want to hear what God is doing for you too!

Love you all!